concert Zee Avi

From Right : Me, Zee Avi, Yati

Concert location: House Of Blues, Boston

Concert location: House Of Blues, Boston

I went to Zee Avi's concert some time ago at House of Blues in Boston.......she was awesome....

after her concert, adaa Pete Yorn concert...he was awesome too, but his music was so loud and I can literally feel all my body parts shaking including my heart beating very fast sbb music die kuat gilerr....lepas je concert tu telinga aku jadi pekak sekejap.....okla takde ape nak cerite sgt, just tgk la k 1 song yg I sempat rakam sblm my batteri camera habis...

at the end of her concert we managed to chat with Zee Avi for a while while taking some autograph.....hehe....but unfortunately I didn't bring along the cd I bought earlier for her to sign...but we did took a photo together....

sad sad

i didn't go to work today.....aku ade migraine lagi.....i am so frustrated with myself....aku tak tau kenape lately selalu sakit kepala....
i decided to see a doctor tomorrow....tu pon kalau leh dpt schedule appointment besok...

aku tau migraine ni takde ubat.....sakit ni buat aku rase down gile.....aku bangun tido tghari tadi....and it kept me thinking of my life....selain migraine, aku ade masalah tido.....i never ever get to sleep soundly through the nite.....everynite i will woke up at least twice, and i will feel very anxious and nervous...aku tak tau kenape aku rase macam tu.....but it kept me wide awake for awhile, and aku dapat rase heart beat aku laju not as per normal....
am i having an anxiety attack??...i don't know, but i want to ask the doctor tomorrow....

a lot of questions, but so little answers.....i feel like i;m lost and missing something in my life....ade macam2 bende aku nak buat, tapi tak berpeluang....ada banyak bende aku nak wat, but aku rase macam dah terlewat utk semua tu.....aku rase mcm nak wat list, mcm dlm cerite The bucket list....overall aku rase totally unhappy ........

since aku keje kat US ni, aku realized yang i am a family person.....i need somebody by my side , and the loneliness is really killing me slowly......i can;t wait to go home next year....i decided to go home next year, instead of extend satu tahun lagi, mainly sebab aku miss home very2 much and aku rase aku mungkin akan jadi gile by the time i finishes my third year kat sini.... people sees me like aku ni macam tough sebab boleh survive sorang2 kat sini, but they have nooooooo idea how i felt inside.....
i have to start doing things for myself, instead of puaskan hati org lain....

eventhough dulu aku dulu study kat US dulu, but this is totally different.....dulu aku tak rase macam ni sebab i have my friends, i have somebody i love beside me......

sometimes aku rase menyesal sebab datang sini, menyesal sebab decided to come here.....maybe sebab dulu aku tak pikir panjang....

okla...aku just need to channel my feelings before i do anything stupid here....don;t worry, i won't....

5 pound in 1 month

mission baru ni.....nak turun kan 5 pound berat badan dlm masa 1 bulan....
i know mesti org kate 5 pound jer...but to me, it's a lot....hehe....
i'll start with 5 pound, pastu tambah lagi.....until i get my ideal weight...yg aku sendiri pon tak tau brape...

it's already a few days in tha one month period...hehe...

and i also have a diet and exercise buddy....hehe...die adalah my husband....my beloved husband...

i know he's very2 far from here, but i just need somebody to motivate me to push myself a little bit harder....can u help me with this hun???....i know u can...hehe

Yati....in case you missed him!!

yati, just in case you missed your cat....hehe...how cute he is....sleeping in his little bed....

part 2

nak sambung siket lagi k...

on 29th May( a day before akad nikah), ada majlis khatam AlQuran for my sister and I....we practiced our recitation in front of 2 ustazah from FELDA for an hour, on the same day, a few hours before majlis tu....I'm glad it went reallly well....no mistakes in our recitation, alhamdullillah....most of the people who came are from Felda....not many of my family members were there that night....lepas majlis tu and makan2, we continue kemas2 umah and last minute preparation ..

lupe nak cakap...pelamin in my house was done by somebody from Felda ...he also made the pelamin in the dewan tu.....it was beautiful......i didn;t had the chance to look at the pelamin kat dewan until the morning of the reception itself.....but everything turns out fine and really2 beautiful.....and u cannot believe how many people helped out with the reception....hundreds of people (felda people) did lend a hand to help out everything they could.......i didn;t know that many people were there to help out.....terharu siket2....

morning of reception day (31 hb May)- I came to the hall (dewan perdana felda) really early......because I have to bring along tons of stuff to the hall...i arrived around 9 am....it was freaking early, but I have to......as soon as I was there, I had breakfast....tapi I tak lalu mkn sangat, i dunno why....maybe sebab nervous kot, bcoz ramai sgt orang and risau i will do something stupid during the event.....my hubby masa tu pon tak sampai lagi, lagipon still awal....

makandam pon datang awal around 10 am to do the makeup and all....a lot of my relatives came in and out of my makeup room., mak andam can tell that I am not comfortable with that many people in that room becoz i selalu berkerut2 and not calm masa die makeup kan...she end up telling everybody in that room to keep it quiet so that i can be more relaxed....huhu....

on that day, my photographer had a car accident.....she didn't call me straight maybe tak nak I freakout, instead she called my hubby .....so she send in her friend also a photographer to replace her.....basically at that day, i end up with 3 photographers for the reception...hehe...banyak giler pics from them...hehe....

at the end of the day, it was raining heavily and we cancelled the outdoor shoot...end up we just shoot in the dewan perdana itself......

details of my pre-wed and wedding day part 1

i decided to blog about my pre-wedding and wedding days....i just want to write down the details in case i do forget it in the future...please do note that i do have a problem remembering things....ask my husband, he knows best...



i went back to Mesia on 18 May, and arrived at klia on 20th May 09, pukul 7 am...

went home, then accompany my mother to do some shopping.....it takes time for me to make a full tour of my home....it was still under renovation when I arrived, and the construction people need to finish it before the big day....alhamdullillah everything went well...

so basically most of the day i just sit at home and sleep a little bit in the afternoon due to jetlag...



next day, my sister and my husband (husband-to-be at that time) arrived at klia...

that morning my mother and I went to nilai first, to do some shopping....then baru pegi klia to pick up both of them....nasib baik diorang punye arrival time tak beza sangat....but unfortunately my husband's flight was delayed and he arrived a little bit late....



basically, from the time I arrived at Mesia I have about a week to do everything: fitting baju for both sides (kl and muar), confirm ngan photog, confirm ngan Anna (hantaran deco), confirm ngan Zam (her cupcakes-hantaran and nikah day), confirm ngan Lin cupcake (cupcakes for guest utk reception), beli baju pengapit, went to spa, confirm with dewan and pelamin decorator and much more......it was absolutely crazy....



I went twice for the baju fitting in KL....it is because, that the original baju (reception) that she made for me was to revealing and i feel like nangis tengok baju tu....don't get me wrong, it was so beautiful and fully beaded just like i wanted, but wearing it with just a corset and french lace covering it, doesn't meet my demand for a full cover-up baju, since i am wearing tudung......she convinced me last time that I do not to worry because the tudung will cover my my exposed body....but when I tried it on, oh my god!!....i feel like screaming and nak nangis, and masa fitting tu I can't even get out of the fitting room because it is too revealing for me....even if I'm wearing tudung, I can still see my body exposed and all....I know it is common now for people wearing tudung, and have a little bit of exposing from the corset and all, but I have a different perspective and opinion....it defeats the purpose of wearing a tudung, and have the other area of your body exposed....

the next day, I called the mak andam and let her know nicely that we would need to fix it...at the end she recommended me to wear baju fit, long sleeve kat dalam corset to cover my body.....it seems odd to her, but I don;t care as long as I am fully covered...



after all the drama, it did work out fine...the purple baju french lace, was made very delicately and you can see from the beading, it did takes hours and days for them to finish it....i really appreciate it so much Kak Reen.....Aside from that dress, she also provided me the akad nikah's dress...which is basically a white dress with full beading at the front....I like it so much, so many people compliment the dresses...and I felt like a princess that day...hehe....bile lagi la kan, time tu je la....

Also, Kak Reen did the make-up for me during akad nikah and the reception at dewan perdana felda...she really transform me, even my husband didn't recognize me masa nak batal air sembahyang....hehe...i did look totally different....



Then I went to Muar untuk fitting baju.....my mother- in- law chose for us to wear songket putih/silver.....during the fitting, the baju was not ready as it was still in the original huge size....the Pak andam still has yet to do the alteration ....so basically, they just want to confirm my body measurement, and do it after that....and I did not managed to do another fitting after that, until the actual day when I will be wearing it...it turns out fine for me and my husband....



wah...panjang btol entry kali ni....will continue later ...still not finish yet...hehe...

my hubby, Yati's cat n more....

dah berhabuk dah blog ni...hehe...sorry sbb lama tak update...

well...it's already one month into the married life...but I do feel sad coz I can't be there for my husband....
but hopefully this will end soon...

i just knew that my husband just bought a new LCD tv 42" for his bedroom....hehe...a little bit bigger than mine....i knew he envy my tv a long long time ago...hehe..so that's why he bought it recently.......

now i am babysitting Yati's cat for a month....this is just because her housemate is afraid or maybe uncomfortable ngan kucing......sometimes i just don;t understand why people can be so afraid of cat, they are just cute, adorable and loving animal....

to Yati, if you're reading this....dont worry....i;ll take good care of the cat...hehe....