44 more days---utk balik Mesia!!!...n more

the countdown begins....hehe...tinggal 44 more days for me to return to Mesia....really2 excited!!

countdown for the big day --- 53 days to come...huhu....excited plus nervous at the same time....is this normal?? is it just me??
honey..just to be clear that i;m nervous because i'm observing the wedding preparation from here....and just based on my 100% trust of along ,mama, papa and also you Hun......dont' get me wrong here k...
i just hope everything will turn out fine...InsyaAllah...

hmm....i should put up more pics here...just to make the blog more interesting to read.....don't u think so??

last weekend ...i basically did nothing ...except laying lazily on my bed , half of the day....get up , took a shower, cook, eat, watch tv, surfing internet...and that's basically what i did for both days....I even close my blinds in my room to make it dark and very comfy to sleep aaallll dayyy......
i don't feel like getting out ...so that's why i was in bed most of the time......
that's just the beauty of living alone...huhu...

before this I had a room mate....and turn out that I woke up early everyday including weekends....i don't know why......i just figured that I had to make them (roommate and a friend)breakfast and prepare lunch .....i think back then i was becoming more like my mama....
itu dulu...tapi skrg....very pemalas......i became very clueless when it came to cook for one....i just hate that feeling...

okla...i have to stop rambling and get back to work...(yes..it's morning here and at my office)... :)

alienated...

sad sad sad...

sometimes i just felt used by people around me....

people come to me only if they need something from me....then isolated me again with their own friend or friends...

when ask why?... they will say somthing that i do not know how to believe...

10 random things about me

Zam, I pon late bloomer in blogging. and this is the first tag for me too!!..hehe

Thanks to Zam http://zamnzara.wordpress.com/ for tagging me...

The rule of this award is to:

1. Copy badge “2008 Cute’s 3logger Award” and paste into ur blog

2. Link the wonderful person who gave this award to u

3. Next, u have to state 10 random facts about urself/hobby before choosing the another 10 recipents for this award

10 random facts about me:

1) single but not available...hehe...getting married soon ..InsyaAllah...

2) favorite color: red....yes red....people ask me why i don;t pick red for my wedding nanti....well i do love red a lot...tapi rasenye merah is not suitable for a wedding , just personal choice...

3) wants to diet n exercise regularly tapi selalu tak jadik....separuh jalan jer boleh...then lepas tu hancosss..hehe..

4) berangan nak run a restaurant ke, butik ker.....or ape2 la....meaning bisnes sendiri.....

5) can't believe i'm in US again....now as an engineer...previously as a chem eng student

6) missing my family so much now....also my beloved honey.....and not forgetting my 2 cute cats (kuning and bobby)...hehe

7) starting to love fancy dresses to wear with jeans....colorful tudung....next step is make-up...i don't use make-up ...if i do, i only use some lipstick, face powder....does this 2 consider as make-up??...

8) loves choc...especially milk choc with almond....any brand of choc will do...and that's why i always have this migrain...and always need to be reminded by my honey to not eat so much of choc...hehe....sorry hun..cannot resist la... :)...patutla takleh diet, asyik pikir choc jer

9) loves vanilla ice cream.....mmmm....makes me drooling already..huhu...

10) dream to be a dancer...hehe...mengarut je ni....but i do love2 to see dance show...maybe someday i'll take a dance class with my hubby...hehe

well tu je 10 random facts about me.....you can see mostly is just my berangan2...hehe

so now i have to tag my friends:

Anna

Shahrul

i know it's only 2...well, what to do ...i just knew a very small circle of bloggers

migraine

excerpt from MedicineNet.com:

In general, symptoms of a migraine attack include:

1. moderate to severe, throbbing head pain
   
2. most commonly one-sided pain; less frequently both sides of the head are affected
   
3. pain located near the eye on affected side
   
4. pain that worsens with physical activity
   
5. sensitivity to light and/or sound
   nausea or vomiting
   
6. debilitating pain that hinders daily activities
   
7. untreated attacks most commonly last from four to 72 hours, but may persist for weeks

number 1 check, 2 check, 3 check, 5 check and 7 check....these are the symptoms i went thru every time migraine comes....

it is really sickening and i am tired of this....

But i am getting better.... i experience less migraine per month than before.....i do need to avoid chocolate (sket2 takper).....but how do i improve sleep disturbance??...i dunno yet...almost every night i can;t sleep well....keeps on waking up every other hours...i already bought a 200USD comfy lapik tilam, which intended to help me sleep better.....it does work for certain days...

excerpt from MedicineNet.com:

How are migraine headaches prevented?

There are two ways to prevent migraine headaches: 1) by avoiding factors ("triggers") that cause the headaches, and 2) by preventing headaches with medications (prophylactic medications). Neither of these preventive strategies is 100% effective. The best one can hope for is to reduce the frequency of headaches.

What are migraine triggers?

A migraine trigger is any factor that causes a headache in individuals who are prone to develop headaches. Only a small proportion of migraine sufferers, however, clearly can identify triggers. Examples of triggers include stress, sleep disturbances, fasting, hormones, bright or flickering lights, odors, cigarette smoke, alcohol, aged cheeses, chocolate, monosodium glutamate, nitrites, aspartame, and caffeine. For some women, the decline in the blood level of estrogen during the onset of menstruation is a trigger for migraine headaches. The interval between exposure to a trigger and the onset of headache varies from hours to two days. Exposure to a trigger does not always lead to a headache. Conversely, avoidance of triggers cannot completely prevent headaches. Different migraine sufferers respond to different triggers, and any one trigger will not induce a headache in every person who has migraine headaches.

frust...sedih n semua yg seangkatannye...

frustration...
just to make things clear ...i am talking about work......yes, work again...
why always work??...simply because i don;t have much going on right now except for my work...

this week , my work really make myself totally worn out....sometimes it just torturing me mentally n physically...but mostly mentally....

sometimes i don't feel i'm cut off with the engineering field.....i don;t know why i took engineering in the first place.....but it's too late turn back time n re-do everything...
dont get me wrong here....sometimes engineering is ok...sometimes it sucks bigtime when all the workload is given to you, with a very short dateline...
how do you want to do the design, calculating every inch of detail, capital estimation, field dimension to make sure everthing fit in a very tight place, creating part list, sizing equipment/parts, do iso drawing, ordering parts, making sure all utilities are sufficient, and the list go on and on....
and almost half of it i have no clue on doing it!!...n yes it is frustrating...

the same list goes for all the projects.....now i have 3 different projects in my hand which are categorized as high priority.....meaning need to do it as fast as i can to solve the problem...
are u freaking kidding me??...one brain , 2 hands and 2 legs for all these??

this morning i woke up , thinking how can i quit this field....nothing else cross my mind except for engineering....maybe this is the challenge i need to work through....eventhough it's painful ......

anyways....May is coming nearer and nearer....can;t wait ....but lots of things need to settle also.....why May??..i'll let you'll know later....huhu... :)

it's saturday now, but i still have to work from home......i know i have no life right now....nothing i can do about it....sucks sucks...

exhausted....tired...

at the time i started to compose this post (3.44 pm)....i've just finished with my meetings started from 9 am this morning....

meetings from morning till late afternoon....no break in between...just a bottle of water and apple for a 15minute lunch....now i think i'm having a bad gastric in my stomach...

discussion discussion and discussion....and i'm thinking how on earth will i get things done if i have meetings all day!!??

and now we are down to 3 project engineers in the plant....more work is piling up for everyone of us ....this is all 2009 projects...and some urgent projects which gives me a headache just thinking about it...if i don;t execute it, this plant will have the potential to shutdown.....due to regulatory issues...
no need to explain more, i just wish i have more time....and more resources to help me on this...

back to reality

i;m back in boston....back to reality...

i've been back for a week already...and i;ve been missing home since i reached here...hmm....nothing i can do but sigh ...hmmm....

at least i still have anna and shahrul here to accompany me ...but all these moments will soon end in a few months...another sigh for me...hmmm...
but i know they can;t wait to be home after this project completed....i;m happy for them...
i'm glad prodata decided to send them here instead of somebody else.....at least i manage to have a roommate for a short period of 6 months...i will really miss them a lot...

i knew this feeling will come eventually, but facing it is even tougher than I thought.....

can;t wait for May....but i am also anxious as it is coming nearer by days.....